I’m still in a bad place right now. I’ve had a few job interviews this week but I’m likely to lose my phone service soon. I finally filed my taxes yesterday. It could take up to a couple of weeks for me to get those funds but we’ll see. I can still mooch a little free wifi here and there but that’ll be a further strain on my job hunt. I’ll see if I can on this under that circumstance but I intended to start doing this everyday and obviously I fell short in this regard. I’m beginning to think my brain shit is more shit than previously estimated…yeah, understanding these things doesn’t do fuck all to help with fixing anything. I’ve been maintaining my plasma donation routine but that can’t be a daily event so, I need to get off my ass and figure out some other things. It sure would be nice to win the lottery or something soon. I’m on the verge of losing things. Storage items, access to hobbies, this website even, the will to live…arguably I never really had that one to start. I really am trying to keep myself going but when you weigh my circumstance of ‘right now’ against the probability of my circumstance ever being ‘good’ let alone what I want it to be, well, it’s not easy to motivate myself beyond this moment. The worst part is that despite my not having a job right now, I haven’t been able to get my ass to sit down and write any of the half dozen or so projects I’ve started over the last couple months to say nothing of the dozen other projects that I started forever ago. So, how’s your day going?
The last few days I’ve been watching through Lucifer again. It’s been awhile and it turns out there’s quite a bit I didn’t fully remember. All in all, that really is a fantastic series. Surprise! Fox blew it dropping that show in season two. Of course, it’s likely it may not have been as great as it is if Fox hadn’t dropped it. Regardless, I found myself falling in love all over again. No, I’m not giving you specifics to that point so don’t ask. More than anything I forgot how hard that last season is for me to watch. Anyone who knows me knows that my backstory is give or take half and half tragic and traumatic. A lot of that series centers on family drama and in particular dad issues. That last season, though, ramps up all those issues for me what with dead dads, developing actualization, and such. So, yeah, a lot of the shit that’s been on my mind more over the last few years.
I’m going to call it here. Again, if anyone reading this has an inroad to Martin Gero, I have ideas for new Stargate and want few things more than to write on Stargate professionally. Soooo, I’m available is my point there. Have fun!
