My situation hasn’t improved.  I have no phone service at the moment.  If I got this out I managed to find some hapless wifi network I could use for a moment to upload.  It’s unlikely I’ll be able to put out more than these blog posts for a little while.  I have one play to make and I’ll see if I can swing it in a couple hours.  Maybe I’ll have some degree of internet access tonight.  If I do I’ll start doing this stuff seriously again.  I’ll start getting shit done again.  And Ideally I’ll hear back from at least one of my interviews.  In the meantime, I’ll make a concerted effort to do this daily.  How hard can it be to write five hundred words each day?  See?  Right here.  One hundred and fifty-six words down.

     I’m late with it but I finally started my quarterly watch of Sports Night.  I’m feeling a little better watching it right now I’m certainly not ‘good’.  There are times I forget just how much this show influenced so many things in my life.  I just wish we had of this technology when I was a child.  It’s still unlikely that I would’ve worked through my childhood shit soon enough to follow through on anything I wanted to do then and do now.  All the same, it would’ve been nice to have had an iPad in the late nineties instead of my being turned off by digital art.  If I had one of these cell phones twenty-five years ago, I could’ve figured out a lot of things much faster and earlier.

     To that point, once again, fuck daylight savings.  It’s well past the time for one of my semiannual rants against daylight savings.  First things first, Franklin did not create daylight savings.  Well, he may have inadvertently created it but it was a joke.  He wrote an open letter wherein he was bashing the idea.  A throw away line amidst mocking the French, and true to form in a single day sticking it to a French lady and then sticking it to the French people as a whole by mocking them for following the English in their practice of burning candles at both ends so as to mitigate the outrageous candle costs ravaging the average household.  Here are some other facts on the matter.  The English instituted daylight savings well into World War I.  Sustaining damage from the Germans’ aerial attacks under the cover of night, the British government had a plan.  They used daylight savings to allow the citizenry time enough to live their daily lives and get home earlier in the evening.  Allowing everyone time enough to get home, be with their families, and have a quiet meal.  After which the entire country would turn out every light.  The entire island was completely blacked out, hiding all possible targets from attackers.  Now, attacks were still launched, however, the casualty numbers were greatly mitigated while the German’s still used armaments and spent funds on those armaments to diminished returns compared to the cost.  The US, on the other hand, first instituted daylight savings following World War II as an attempt to skirt the costs of expanding infrastructure to and throughout more rural areas, only to spend more money to eventually expand said infrastructure thirty to forty years later as it was inevitable to do so.  Tracking the timeline of technological advancement in this country as well the course and path of that advancement, I’m very confident in saying that daylight savings was among the greater factors inhibiting technology in United States.

     But hey, now we have spoiled, cry-baby nepo-bitches going out of their way to make Skynet real while making Cylons, and they’re not chromed yet.  There, that’s my regular, semiannual anti-daylight savings rant.

     Anyway, just because this is kind of my thing right now, if anyone reading this can give my name to Martin Gero please do it.  I want to be involved with the new Stargate series and I have ideas for it.  I sat down and wrote a couple more pages of my spec script for a new Stargate series.  I was thinking about posting it up somewhere online but I don’t know where.  Well, later…maybe…

I’m still in a bad place right now.  I’ve had a few job interviews this week but I’m likely to lose my phone service soon.  I finally filed my taxes yesterday.  It could take up to a couple of weeks for me to get those funds but we’ll see.  I can still mooch a little free wifi here and there but that’ll be a further strain on my job hunt.  I’ll see if I can on this under that circumstance but I intended to start doing this everyday and obviously I fell short in this regard.  I’m beginning to think my brain shit is more shit than previously estimated…yeah, understanding these things doesn’t do fuck all to help with fixing anything.  I’ve been maintaining my plasma donation routine but that can’t be a daily event so, I need to get off my ass and figure out some other things.  It sure would be nice to win the lottery or something soon.  I’m on the verge of losing things.  Storage items, access to hobbies, this website even, the will to live…arguably I never really had that one to start.  I really am trying to keep myself going but when you weigh my circumstance of ‘right now’ against the probability of my circumstance ever being ‘good’ let alone what I want it to be, well, it’s not easy to motivate myself beyond this moment.  The worst part is that despite my not having a job right now, I haven’t been able to get my ass to sit down and write any of the half dozen or so projects I’ve started over the last couple months to say nothing of the dozen other projects that I started forever ago.  So, how’s your day going?

     The last few days I’ve been watching through Lucifer again.  It’s been awhile and it turns out there’s quite a bit I didn’t fully remember.  All in all, that really is a fantastic series.  Surprise!  Fox blew it dropping that show in season two.  Of course, it’s likely it may not have been as great as it is if Fox hadn’t dropped it.  Regardless, I found myself falling in love all over again.  No, I’m not giving you specifics to that point so don’t ask.  More than anything I forgot how hard that last season is for me to watch.  Anyone who knows me knows that my backstory is give or take half and half tragic and traumatic.  A lot of that series centers on family drama and in particular dad issues.  That last season, though, ramps up all those issues for me what with dead dads, developing actualization, and such.  So, yeah, a lot of the shit that’s been on my mind more over the last few years.

     I’m going to call it here.  Again, if anyone reading this has an inroad to Martin Gero, I have ideas for new Stargate and want few things more than to write on Stargate professionally.  Soooo, I’m available is my point there.  Have fun!

Say, it’s been awhile…again.  Still nothing worthwhile to report.  The country is still shitting the proverbial bed.  But hey, it’s not as though millions of us were saying exactly this shit was going to happen.  For the last almost ten years now.  There are far too many people who are too stupid to breath still alive and getting in the fucking way.  It’s been hard enough just to get up out of bed on the couch all these years without this bullshit but alas, here we are…STILL.

     Anyway, I haven’t gotten done much of what I planned lately.  I had another job for a minute but that was no good.  Another one of those “management training” shams except this one was far more less mature and equally professional than the others I’ve experienced.  Ultimately, they couldn’t seem to figure out how to open the doors for their employees.  And no, that’s not a euphemism.  I spent ten minutes outside that building hitting the call box with no response from an office of almost two dozen people who couldn’t be bothered to push a button.  And yet I’m supposed to count on them for a successful business?  That was day four.  On day three it was demonstrated that all their RAH RAH! cheerleading bullshit is exactly that.  I lost half a day of sales because because the software tools weren’t easily accessible on my personal device, the security of which I had to diminish to eventually get them to work.  Meanwhile, the one person in the ‘company’ who could allegedly help me with this issue was too concerned with making their nut for the day to take a minute and help the new guy.  By my count, that’s three strikes.  Some of these “management training” models can offer important services and/or good products but one way they all skirt certain liabilities is by “establishing companies”, “building teams”, or “owning/operating” offices, vans, routes, whatever.  That means each and every different ‘company’ is an entirely different company operating under the umbrella of company owns the company that owns the company that owns whatever the service or product is.  Each company will have its own culture despite none of them being original enough to deviate from their morning meeting rituals.  To anyone who finds themselves interviewing for such jobs, I recommend being very mindful of your instincts in those moments.  Very few of these jobs will be genuinely worthwhile let alone good.  And keep in mind the value of your time and your efforts.  I know looking for a job under good circumstances isn’t easy or fun but her I am, looking for a job again and still but I rather that than being associated with people who can’t handle opening a god damn door.

     I’m thinking I’m going to go hiking with one of my best friends today.  It’s been a long time since I’ve gotten to anything like that.  I should probably get ready.  If anyone reading this knows how to get me in touch with Martin Gero so I beg for a job writing on Stargate, please, feel free to do so. 

I have some fun things to talk about here but first, more suicide talk.  A couple weeks ago I went to a movie screening.  I can’t talk about it yet but it’s fantastic and I can’t wait for it to come out!  Walking home from Burbank, though, I crossed over the five and it’s very easy to think things looking over that rail.  It was rather hard for me in that moment.  Just a reminder, talking is always an option.  I’m generally not busy…ever.  Feel free to reach out here, I get it.

     Now then, this post will mostly to jerk off PlutoTV and The X-Files.  Recently PlutoTV, I guess launched a new channel for The X-Files.  Which is just one more reason I love PlutoTV.  This app just keeps getting better.  I even saw the other day that there’s a channel with the Beastmaster series which was among my favorite things at that time.  In no small part because of Samantha Healy’s performance as The Demon Iara…let’s say ‘inspiring’ things for a teenage Tim.  Otherwise, it’s a super fun show.

     The other day the episode, The Post-Modern Prometheus was on.  One of my favorites and I feel underrated.  First, the whole episode is in black and white.  Homage to classic monster movies of the greats, Lon Chaney, Bella Lugosi, and Peter Lorre.  I haven’t read Mary Shelley’s Frankenstein: or the Modern Prometheus so, I missed all the references to it until I read through the trivia section on IMDB.  Some very interesting tidbits there, I recommend the read.  And then there’s John O’Hurley’s performance as a mad scientist.  That man is very funny and he very well pulled off this character.  Now, the biggest thing about this episode is ‘the monster’, The Great Mutato.  A classic ‘monster’ story, great design, phenomenal performance, and a more original story.  Far and away among the greatest episodes of The X-Files and in turn television as a whole.  A great part of that is the performance of Chris Owens.  Before his appearance in this episode he appeared in a couple episodes of The X-Files as “Young Smoking Man” in Musings of a Cigarette Smoking Man, which is another of my favorites, and Demons.  After this episode, he comes back as FBI Agent Jeffrey Spender.  Now, I bring this up because Chris Owens, in this episode was The Great Mutato.  Much of his performance was a little cartoony, dancing and singing whilst committing rape.  To be clear, the extreme dichotomy of the scene with tone and action is what I say is cartoonish, not the rape.  In particular, the end of the episode, he delivers a monologue about acceptance and his personal experience in his solitude.  An homage to Mel Brook’s Young Frankenstein.  Also, the make up and prosthesis for Mutato cost $40,000(no specificity whether that dollar amount is in 1997 or adjusted for inflation) and took five to seven hours for application.  Again, according to the IMDB trivia page for this episode.  My point is that Chris Owens is another talented performer who most people don’t know his name.

     That’s pretty much all I wanted to say this go ‘round.  I’m working out getting other things done so, soon I guess.  For whatever that’s worth.  

Not much has been going on here lately.  I’ve worked a couple more small acting gigs, unpaid of course.  That seems to be my wheelhouse so far.  I’m still looking for another “real job”.  I haven’t had any new interviews this week.  I have been consistently donating plasma so, I have a routine to some extent.  I’m planning to get home in the next hour so which will be at minimum thirteen hours ago if you read this exactly when it posts, because linear temporal causality is fun, to sit down and finally record some material.  By the time you read this something may be posted and you can hear me talk about shit again or possibly even see me talk about shit again.  In any case, I could use some input.  By way of video material, it looks like my best options are Youtube and/or Twitch.  I need to know pros and cons for each.  I’ve concerned about Tik Tok for awhile and seeing something from a creator I respect for his work demonstrating that Tik Tok is getting to be exactly as bad as we knew it would be given the recent circumstances.  My objective is to not go out of my way to discuss current affairs in the US right now.  There are plenty of people who are already established doing so and they doing it well.  Rather, I want to talk about fun stuff and entertain.  That said, I’m sure you all know how I feel about censorship and The 1st Amendment.  Anyone who’s half paying attention knows where I stand.  So, yeah, I want to do fun things on here and maybe distract from all the pain and bullshit going on right now.  Just for a minute.  I don’t want anyone numbing themselves when it comes to the bullshit going on.  There’s work to do and if I had the resources to do it myself, I would.  So, there’s that.  Onto other things…again.

     I’ve been looking more into the Transformers RPG.  Renegade Games has been building up and series of TTRPG lines all using the Essence 20 or E20 system.  Transformers, GI Joe, Power Rangers, and even My Little Pony.  My attention was piqued almost a year and a half ago when I was out at Barnes & Noble picking up the new MMVRPG book at that time.  I came across the Beginner’s Box or Starter Set and it looked interesting.  My first step with any of these games is always character creation and the starter set didn’t have that information.  Chatting in the Discord servers I frequent, eventually I found the information I wanted and started building a random generator for creating characters for this game.  Also, I was pointed to a Discord server for Renegade Games games.

     I originally wrote this last week and then forgot to post it when I planned.  So, here it is now.  And I have other things to write to about right now.